just how cheap can u get?
it simple never fails to amaze me how ppl can have such low EQ.. sigh.. and these are not the average teenagers that we mite expect this kind of behaviour but its 20 year olds who are supposed to be matured .. well apparently. here's a quick example well i have this friend who told me about her few ahem really "generous" housemates. well it was thought that it would be fair to share detergent since its more convinient. They decided to take turns to replenish the pack each time it runs out.. so a few of them started the cycle with good brands of detergent considering that its better to get sumthing more expensive, smells fragrant and washes more efficiently. besides its their clothes anyway. what ticks this friend of mine off is this really cheapo housemate.Finally it was miss cheapopotamus's turn to replenish the detergent. it would be common sensible sence to replenish with at least the same brand of detergent, however being as cheapskates as ever, she went to a cost cutting store and replenished the detergent with one that costs 1 dollar! that smells bad, does not wash clothes efficiently and hardens really fast.. oh my gawd where is the cow sense!?!?? let alone common sense!
that is just one situation there is this other time where there was a small get together and everyone was urged to bring food for the pot luck. and wha-ya-know.. lo and behold she brought 6 over baked yams to dnr! WTF!?? and enjoyed everyone else's lovely dishes! its amazing how no one ever notices the stingyness! oh my gawd
that's not the end of the story, during other occasions she always turns up with the "best" dishes, dishes that one can only dream of in their cheapest nightmare. that needs no skills preparing what so ever. mannnnnnn where do these ppl come from anyway? the land where scrooge behaviour is applaued? well my dear fren hahahah u have to bear with these ppl not me! i just love listening to u rant about em *wink* do tell me more!
"on the street where i live"
well as i have mentioned before, my current accomodation is not the best place to be. Complained enough about the room already and well the crappiness of having 12 flatmates especially when u have only 2 fridge. but interesting enough, the street on which the flat faces is worth commenting on. My window opens to a street called Cowgate, it is by far the noisiest experience i've ever had my whole life (as yet) . Along cowgate there are numerous pubs .. i know wut u all are thinking my now "oh my gawd.. the noise!" unbrearable.. but honestly its not the pounding vibration and the sound of hip hop music that annoys me, but its the drunkards that yell on the streets at about 2am, singing and talking. The gurls will be shrieking like there is no tommorow with their really ear-aching shrill voice, attracting attention and to get noticed perhaps? as you travel along cowgate, it can be an eye opener. for one end leads to grassmarket which used to be an excecution place as i was told. Grassmarket provides a great view of the castle, and shops with vibrant colours mushroom around a small square? A variety of shops ranging from hat sellers to costume shops dotted along the sides are intriguing! moving from grassmarket down cowgate pass the pubs, as you walk pass kincaids court, (a route i always travel when heading to the gym on pleasance, there are beautifully preserved cobbled roads going up steeply leading to higher streets. Past these little roads there is always a modern looking building with high tech barriers never fails to catch my eye, maybe because of the barriers or the 'you will be prosecuted sign if u tresspass' sign. strangely enough this is were i went just today! and to my surprise, that building.. yes that high tech looking place is non other than the.. CITY MORGUE ahhaha! ironically across cowgate of there is a church on the far left, St patricks, nestled at the end of the street, which is absolute a quaint wee place of serenity.....
Who DO u PiCk???
a guy who is always there or someone u really feel for?? would you rather end up with a guy who loves u more than u love him ? or wud you go for the one who makes ur heart skip a beat?
true, many ppl would naturally go for the first option the safe one.. the guy who is sweet, always there, loves you more than u love him.. but is that enough? However its natural for ppl to pick the safest choice. I however would like to pick the latter.. why? hmm not that i am a sadist who enjoys torturing myself or that i prefer not to be loved.. i do enjoy all the attention given etc etc.. but i have decided to take a step back and review the situation.
PIcking the First type :
ok true, you need not go through the hard heart stopping, uncertainty part of pre-dating. You already know wut is coming your way, u know he likes u, u even know ur answer, u have time to plan ur answers. U finally accept, u're ok.. you feel fine generally, its nice to have someone fuss over u, someone who is always there, adores you more than anything.. but is that satisfying for yourself? You start to notice little little things about the person that somewhat annoys you,.. you ask urself is this the right choice.. ya it mite seem cuz he's the best catch.. he's nice etc etc.. but is that all?
Picking the 2Nd type :
For me its very important to pick someone who makes my heart skips a beat.. i know many would tell me that its nonsense, non practical and superficial. Chemistry however plays an important role, i need the spark the feeling b4 you really start dating, the increase in heart rate, the nonsensical things you say or do, u try to impress and u wake up hoping and praying the other will feel the same. and when u finally get the person, u will feel a burst of happiness that surges through your veins and all you wanna do is shout out to the world! the little simple things that he does sends you to the moon, throws u over the stars and makes you sleep soundly like a baby through the night.. Even the hardest long distance relationship does not seem like a problem. The sound of his voice is absolute music to your ears. I tend not to mind going the extra mile for this special person, cook, knit, travel, impress.. but when things go wrong.. or u have an unhappie moment, u can look back at the beginning and think of the beautiful moments and rmb, you picked this person.. and the next step is still yours somehow.. u can either tell urself its ur choice and stick to it.. or.. kick urself silly for u can't blame anyone, YOU MaDe the choice...
these are just my views.. u need not agree with me.. anyhow life is not a bed of roses, fairy tales can still exist if u persue it.. non-believer of romantic movies and fairy tales i might be.. but undeniably i am still waiting for my very own fairy tale ending......
a malaysian gurl in scotland
well actually edinburgh, anyway when i arrived here in edinburgh, i was rather indifferent i'd say, not too happie not too sad.. its my first choice anyway.. so rather sceptical, still scorn from the fact that i was ripped away from my comfort zone and my family back in epo..
somehow i tried to look on the bright side but it seems that this places hates me.. i didn't get my keys for the accomodation cuz well i guess certain forms a) not sent out b) lost in the mail c)misplaced .. so i had to walk a distance b4 i cud get my keys.. and when i opened my room.. to my horror it was kinda like the worst room in the flat, it was looonnng believe me.. lonnng and narrow! its like they cornered off a part of the hallway and sed "oh my gawd we have not enuff rooms,lets just turn this part of the hallway into a room" (bugger) hmm i tot.. nvm.. whooosshhhaaa try to rearrange the furniture a bit to make it more roomy? well i did that.. except that the bed was too long to be placed next to the window and when i arranged my desks, i realised the room had weird angles! if the desk aligns with the window, it does not allign with the walls.. get the pic? so there are spaces ard the room where furniture just can't stick to the wall?!!
was already cursing when i further realised the next day that the darn bank system takes darn long to get sorted out!nvm sort out uni stuff? yuppers b4 i left, i sent my forms which i received 2 days 4 days b4 my flight.. soo had to courrier.. to my dismay that after a few days, my friends received their matrix cards wayy earlier than me even though i sent it in earlier.. so i was ermm id-less for more than a week! the uni also kinda forgot me? they sent out schedules to everyone regarding the transfer week except me.. so was wondering ard like a dummy for one day. gosh.. had so much trouble with passwords ard here as well.. i did not get mine! wut the heck!so cud not access the uni website etc etc.. the internet access drove me nuts as well.. we apparently have to get online to register with some user name and password given, send em an email, wait for 2 working days.. then get internet access in ur room.. crazee system! well i did that with sheer tolerance .. so registered together with 2 other friends.. the next day, they had internet access and me? none! soon, other ppl registered.. and they had internet access as well! ARGH>> i had to call up the internet ppl darn darn a lot of times and was told that i'd get mine very soon.. tipu me laa i had to call the next day and demand for it ...aiii finally in the afternoon i had internet access.. yohh wut an experience!
well soon,. things got settled.. one by one.. slowly.. and eventually.. hmmm tough luck.. but i am still staying in my tiny wee crammy hallway-like room.. and crossing my fingers for better luck to come by...
THinK 2x BeFore YoU dAte ...
a guy who
- scolds u for nothing/everything
- does not allow u to stay angry at him for long even its its really his fault
- when he is angry with u, he stays mad for a looooonng time
- gf basher
- scrouge that counts to the very last cents u owe him
- drinker who does not know his limits , throws up everywhere and u have to lug him home
- smoker - its as if its not bad enuff that he is dying early, he wants to drag u to the grave with him (secondary smoke kills)
- cheats on ya with.. his EX/ur BEST FREN/his BEST FREN/ur MOM!
- when u are willing to sort things, he pretends to have dual personality/needs psychiatric help
- has a very very bad BO (and probably insists its U!)
- expects u to mother him like a kid
- acts like the "big guy" around HIs friends (like he owns u or sumthing)
- do not love animals and kids
- has all these expectations of you ie cook, wash etc etc when he has nothing good to offer u
- shorter than u
- who makes constant stoopid jokes that no one understands
- who only thinks of SEX.. tsk tsk tsk ( and he's lousy at it.. nooooo nightmare!)
- has really really bad taste in dressing and determines wut u shud wear.. argh.. (like him!)
- insist that u dress like his mom
- with him there is no learning/ growing process for u, u just teach him
- a sissy, with a rather overdeveloped feminine sensitive side
- when confronted with a serious situation, he expects u to defend him
- does not appreaciate his own culture/origin
- who talks real loud and acts really crudely (like some big time chinese gangster)
- thinks he is prettier than u (nooo wut is wrong)
- demands that u leave ur family for him/his religion etc etc
- kills ur pets and gives them to u as a stuffed b day pressie.. ewww!!!that is sick!
- insists that u wear matching outfits every every single time u go out
- will never be friends if u ever breakup (its either lovers or nothing)
- hates ur family
- uses ur dog as a foot stool or a foot wipe/rug
- preaches to u like there IS NO TMRW!
- has really bad habits (diggin nose, smelling ur own underarms, wipes mouth on shirt)
- does not appreciate u for who u really are n makes u feel lower that u really are
- makes u pay for all the bills and subsequently his living expenses (a parasite)
- only wants to enjoy the privilegdes of a relationship but does not want any commitment
- more emotional and sensitive than u or your MOM
- does not change his clothes for days! -ewwwwww self inflicted BO
- has a very very low tolerance level
- super clingy clingy thing
beSt FrienDs
someone who...
- is always there for u, whether u see em or not
- knows how ur mind thinks.. and accepts it (reminding me to be myself always and tok crap with me as well hehe)
- tells u where u've gone wrong (like when i've fallen for the wrong ppl??)
- never fails to crack u up!
- understands when u leave suddenly without a word (stoopid wifi rite? forever la)
- tells u wut is best for u
- accompanies u to where ever u wanna go/do regardless if they like or not (DotA..haha)
- makes the most boring activities that u have to do worth going for (ie renewing id card)
- shares ur secrets as u share theirs (shhhhh and not blackmail u with it)
- knows when u are down, and comes to the rescue (when i dun feel like studying or just feel super sad, thanks the uplift thru many ways!)
- talkin to em, just makes u forget your worries or problems
- can help u plan ur evil schemes and have a great laugh at the end (stoopid woman who stole my dog wud be sneezing ever so often)
- inspires u in everything you do
- you can never get mad at for long (for the many times i let u down..sorrie)
- you can have long chats with regarding just about anything
- laugh at ur same lame jokes (almost every minum session last time regarding the similar teacher ahhaha u know who i mean!)
- sees everything beautiful in u despite the many flaws (esp when i lack self esteem and confidence, thanks..)
- thinks along ur line to get thru to u (like explaining all ur complicated words to a dummie like me)
- has the same wave length, same frequency
- sniggers with u in the cinema quietly regarding scenes that u find farnee
- never embarasses u, even if they do, its funny! (like yelling my name in the cinema wah liu!-james u nit)
- you can sit with quietly without saying a word and not feel weird or lost (many times when i stare into space thanks for bringing me bk to reality)
- loves the same sitcoms and just talking about em makes you laugh (too much friends and frasier dy)
- you just love to b*tch to? hehe just about anything that happens in your days (haha darren and his 'farnee' neighbour and pharmacy guy)
- tolerates ur pet peves and understands ur fear (james and i share the same shark fear!)
- sends u long personal email almost everyday to remind u that they are alive (thanks james)
- makes 3d stuff / cartoons that is suitable for every occassion (darren u're the best!)
- teaches u chemistry (dread it) patiently with sound effects to make it more interesting (darren this one's for u)
- gives the best genuine hugs - without ahem weird intentions
- you've been friends like for .. AGES!!!!!!
special thanks to
darren and
james who have been my
guy best friends for ages! and my gurlie gurlie best friends, you know who u are!love you guys for being just u and let me be me! i cannot imagine life never knowing you guys.. i feel like i've known you forever.
You Know its a NightMaRe when....
- you wake up sweating
- thanking god its just a dream
- your heart's pounding away like a time bomb
- u feel all hazy and wanting to snooze again to dream of a better dream?
my my there are a few nightmares i'd love to rid myself of, but sadly it just stays and rather too clearly as well! (wish i cud have used that memory space for my studies!)here read bout it and tell me wut U think..
1. this one is the most vivid and horrifyingly looks most logical. the setting was at my house, i was downstairs, there was a storm and things seem to be falling apart, trees, pillars, and my dogs were stuck outside, they seem to be barking at something horrifying. When i turn and saw it, it was a huge ghastly floating head and body!smirking and bloodied at the places where his limbs were missing, and from his gaping lips, i can see his rotting teeth smeared with grim and blood. at that unfortunate instance it saw me, and i began hiding behind walls and pillars but it seems like it could sense me, sense my fear and started for me! to my room i ran and somehow hid on my bed, shaking and trembling. as i turned my head, the orbing figure floated from below and stared at me directly from my window! aaaaaa i woke up praying.. and in the similar position that i was in the dream!gosh..
2. it was a family vacation at a mansion, as we were all sitting by the pool, (i'll just skip the illogical beginning) and i dropped my glasses into the pool. As i was just about to climb down the steps leading into the pool, i saw a dark fin approaching so i hurriedly scrambled up asap,, mannn i hate sharks to the max! ppl who know me will definitely know that. and there was this lifeguard who offered to retrieve it for me despite my pleas not to. So down the ladder he climbed and miraculously scooped the specs up, as he was ascending the tiny steps, the dark fin appeared and in flick of a second he was pulled down, a blood curling scream penetrated the serene surroundings. the calm blue colour of the pool is now replaced by a sickening hue of red. as the blood curling scream rings in my ears i saw the man scrambing trying in vain to climb out only to be dragged in again. A string of intestines lashed out and coiled itself around the nearest statue, in a desperate attempt to pull the lifeguard out. The screams just grew louder and louder as the intestines wind tighter and tighter.(i can almost see the air bubbles in certain parts of the entrails)suddenly.. there was silence, the intestines were lax and blood dripped from it slowly trailing down the statue. AAAAAA i forced myself to wake up and there i was rolling about on my bed, with a deep feeling of gratitude that it was only a bad bad dream
3. (i'll go straight to the crazee part) the car i was travelling in broke down, hence my friends and i decided to rent a car/taxi. we came across a line of rather run down stalls where we could actually rent a vehicle. before entering i noticed a drifter who stared at us with his seedy eyes but ignored him and entered the first stall,after paying the guy a sum of cash, we left to proceed to the nearest rental car only to be stopped by the drifter who wielded a pen knife dangerously at us. so we all backed into a toilet and hid there for a while hoping that the drifter will leave. creeping to the door, we peered out from a slit and saw ppl dancing in a circle, holding hands and hence we decided to go out one by one to join in the dance hoping that the drifter will not recognize us. 2 friends left and joined the "ring dance", i was the 3rd. Scurrying out, i ran towads my friends and held her hand and waited for the 4th friend. a dark hand grasped my hand and i gasped with horror as it was just a hand! no body, no figure nothing!my 4th friend took and dash and ran to hold my hand, or rather the dark hand. both of us were struggling to hold each others hands but the dark hand just kept holding us, darn gross!!! finally the dance came to an end and i looked at my palm, which was now inscribed (burnt onto my hands) with symbols and words i do not comprehend.. my fren however was frantically shaking her hands and when i looked carefully, there the dark hand was, pinned tightly to her hands by 3 big nails that went thru and thru!! mannnn i was freaked beyond my wits and begged it to be all a dream...
DaRE to dREam- slip into the mind of eE-Min
As we slip into a world of unconsciousness, our brain shuts down to rest. The mind is now free of our normal control and this is when dreams go hay wire and almost illogical. however, i feel dreams seem to represent what we subconsciously desire. This does not necessary includes ALL dreams and nightmares.
To identify these dreams and ur inner desire, its actually pretty easy, for these are the few dreams that seem to repeat and when u ask yourself truthfully, u will realise that u do hope for certain things to happen. Honestly it has happened to me before, i once had a teeny crush who suddenly decided to stop talking to me one day, at first i have to admit that it did hurt. After a while i begin to move on with life but really slowly. This is when the dreams start occur, it has happened about 4-5 times. In these dreams set in various illogical settings, this particular crush would walk up to me and we would start talking. It was after the 4th time did i ask myself, what do i really want, and lo behold, after a much thought, i had the answer. There is nothing more that i want but a friendship with this remarkable person. To cut the story short, i finally spoke to him and it wasn't really that bad, i no longer have a crush but a friend! and the dreams stopped.....(thank goodness)
Of course in this complex little brain of mine which i simply can't control, there are still many recurrent dreams but at least now, as i speak there is already one less!!
dreams seem to be a way your inner side is calling to u and it actually helps you know urself better. If u seem to be thinking/engaging in a particular activity to frequently, it will surely appear in your dreams and its up to u to do something about it. you actually know when u've fallen for a certain person, ok at least for me, this person seems to be appearin in my dreams quite frequently and in most of my dreams i would be yelling at myself "please do not let this be a dream" and i would disappointingly wake up. I now realise that i've a certain liking for a certain person if he
1. appears more than 5 times 2. seems to be the main character in my dreams 3 . makes me wish and hope it was not just a dream 4 . when he's in my dream, i don't wanna wake up 5. in my dreams he is the most adorable thing i've ever met ..... As much as i can't help it, i sometimes look forward to sleeping for only in my dreams can my dreams come true! so ppl... DARE TO DREAM!!
a meaningful poem to share...
a poem that i found,
i'd like to share,
about feelings that are profound,
but definitely hard to bear..
for those out there,
who are not a "pair",
to let u know that ppl care,
and that life can be unfair.........
to the
special someone in everyone's life...here goes...
There's someone special in my life,
Who doesn't know i care,
I wish I could let him know it,
But let it show i wouldn't dare.
I don't want to even risk it,
I don't want to even try,
For if he knew I felt this way,
I'd feel insecure and shy.
I never thought I'd feel this way,
I never thought I'd care,
There' s something in that smile of his,
That makes me stop and stare.
How can i tell if he likes me,
Will he ever look my way,
I'll keep my feelings hidden for now,
And save them for another day...........
-n-
for those who feel this way,
you are not alone,
there will be a day,
where you will find your "one",
by your side he/she will stay.
so don't despair,
for one day when u dare,
that someone will care....
SuPEr MuPEr Non HUman PoWErs!!
yuppers when u have absolutely not much on your mind, u will suddenly realise that u have a lot of weird questions waiting to be answered.. and the weird question that popped up in my mind the other day was.. "if i had super powers, wut wud it be?" and the out of no where maybe from the sleepiest part of my brain i heard a teeny tiny voice say to me "how bout the ability to control people's sleep and dreams!?" sounds like nothing rite? hey hey let me prove to you why it can be a great asset, sure sure i know many would want super powers like superman, speeederman, the incredibles etc etc,, but have u heard of MISS SNOOZZE!?? now now, don't underestimate her powers yet, let me explain wut she can do hehehe
ok lets say.. a snatch theif comes along and grabs your purse..(picture that in slow movement like in the movies) time slows down, your eyes contact, you stare at that sleezy eyes, just for a split second. he sniggers, u sinically give him that smirk and then u blink..He freezes, as if stunned, he shuts his eyes and sleeps standing. You begin to control his dream, in his dream he runs and runs and runs and runs wut seems to be like a 100miles (not 8 miles) and escapes, but in real life he's just standing there, maybe drooling a bit, u swear u can almost see the z z z z escaping from his head hehe so now u retrieve your purse and u call the cops!and there you go one crime busted!
next next u meet a rapist, nope u don't need ur pepper spray, he jumps and attacks, u surprisingly do not resist much, he hisses at ur face "shut up" u stare at his beady evil eyes and smirk. He freezes! and he dreams.. (this time ya feel like being mean) my friend larry once told me about a fren of his who dreams about opening doors everynite, and after a number of doors he opens he gets his head cut off.. its darn scary actually, its like u wonder how many doors you have to open before u get ur head cut off, hehe u can spice things up a lil wit our rapist fren here,, he dreams that he opens doors,, every door a different one. he wonders wut is beyond that door, suddenly he opens "the"door and gets castrated aaaaaaaaaaa.. and he feels pain...ouch... and suddenly he's back to opening doors.. and the vicious cycle begins once more. Back in reality,he's snoozing alright, but not having the greatest dream of all! So u get up, tie him with a rope and call the cops ! 2nd crime busted
of course once u've handed these creeps back to the cops..u can release them from their dreams!
best thing about this super power, not many ppl will expose you, in fact no one!and no one gets physically hurt, no fighting, no sweat! no pain but a lot to gain! okok now lets talk bout bending the super powers to ur needs, lets say u have this crush and u don't get to meet him a lot, but when he sleeps at night, u can "send" him happy thoughts, day1, u guys get to know each other a lil, day2 maybe u guys go on a date, day3 ok u go on a date again this time to somewhere nice, romantic, paris or rome maybe? and u continue dating him etc etc so when he wakes up every morning.. he'd be wondering "am i infactuated with this gurl?"of course if u want a natural mutual feelings, u be urself in the dream, u actually get to know each other,eventually if its meant to be, u fall for each other!not too bad huh? once again no one gets hurt.. its onlya dreamm...zzzzzzzzzzzz zzzzzzzzz
MoVEe CraZEe - in the mood for lurve?
Here are a few of my personal favs -
When u are in the mood for lurrrvvee check out :
most of the love movies that i watch are not 100% sappy and involves a lot of laughter and suitable for relaxing as well. So for example i ain't a great fan of sappy slow movies like titanic (the only great part is the ending where the ship goes down, of course some guys wud disagree with me, and probably enjoy the steamy scenes by kate winslet, ya know wut i mean!)here are a few romantic comedy i enjoy and more down to earth
1. while u were sleeping
excellent performance by Sandra Bullock and Bill Pullman who displays unspeakable fondness towards each other. Down to earth and packed with wittiness, this is certainly one interesting movie. Its not exactly a fairy tale movie where poor/stable maid gets the Prince. In this movie Sandra battles to choose between the man she has adored for a long time and the guy who mite just be the perfect match for her. Love the part where both parties realised they were perfect together and so desperately want to tell each other that they were meant to be.
2. you've got mail
remarkable revelation how 2 ppl who oppose each other (despite similarities) in all walks of life end up as best friends and eventually falling in love. The actors displayed utter pride and ego commonly experienced in our daily lives. A truly good movie for book lovers, hhehe considering the movie setting involves book stores!The conversation between main characters are both smart and mind boggling. the show beautifully unfolds and expresses the emotions experienced. Interesting play on human ego, and the risk each meg and tom decides to take.
3. two weeks notice
if u love hugh grant, u wud love this movie, cute n utterally clueless yups that's him! sandra mite not be the most perfect girl for the most eligible bachelor in town, but the movie portrays how even the most klutzy person can get a man suitable for herself. 2 thumbs for this movie, sure did make me laugh.
4. only you
beautiful scenery of europe, this is a story of a crazee woman who runs from her own wedding in search for her soul mate (unaware that its a prank by her older brother), marissa tomei travels around italy and bumps into robert downey jr. who seems fell in love and tries ways and means to BE this soul mate of hers. in this movie shows the distance each individual is willing to travel in search of the perfect one.
5. kate and leopold
ever imagined urself falling for a duke/erl?totally a movie for hopeless romantics,a tale of time travel and a true gentleman who touches the heart of a young hard hearted young woman. if u are looking for a purrfect gentleman,opens doors etc etc and treats u like gold then hugh jackman's ur man! think its hard to convince a hard hearted woman to fall for u?now try convincing her to drop her career and follow u back in time!
6. 50 first dates
A MUST WATCH! all thumbs up! beautiful hawaiian setting and there is just never a single dull moment. adam sandler displays enjoyable patience and sheer determinance to obtain the gurl that the loves. of course there are the sea creatures for animal lovers. A lot of witty conversations to stimulate ur mind! sooo watch and hear carefully!
